Writer’s Block

I am not, I repeat, not going to whine on and on here about writer’s block.

I’m instead going to whine on and on about writer’s I don’t wanna.

I know, I know. Everyone says “with the holidays coming up, I just don’t have time!”

True enough.

But, I made the time for Nano, even while working 40+ hours a week and holding down two other small businesses I run.

So, what’s so different?

I’ll tell you. I just don’t wanna. Plain and simple, like a three year old being drug to the doctor for shots, I’ve dug my heels in and said I don’t wanna.

I want to write, I really do. But I’m rebelling because I want to write the way *I* want to write, not the way they want me to. Technically, it’s a 48 year old having a pity party.

If you want to be an author, there’s always going to be a critic, an editor, an agent, a person on the street who randomly says it’s good, but if you only fixed this part……if you only wrote this instead…if if if. And if you’re someone who desperately wants to be published you say, fine! I’ll change it!

Or, you have a pity party.

I can tell you the final straw came with subsequent editorial changes, a crit AND the demise of one of my precious kitties. Yes, it was hard knocks all the way around. Bad things, very bad things happened at work and in life in general. And this time, for once, it got me down and held me there.

Last night, I FORCED myself to write. Absolutely forced. It’s drivel. I struggled. I pouted. But I wrote over 800 words. And today I wrote more. And it was better. And this afternoon, I’ll write even more and the words will flow, and I’ll be back to my old self.

Pity Party is over. I don’t wanna is over.

It’s time to get back to work, one step at a time.

carrie

6 Responses to “Writer’s Block”

  • sorry to hear that bad things have happened in your life – life IS tough!
    But I’m pleased to hear that you don;t let life get in the way of writing 🙂
    Keep up the good work, Carrie! You will get where you want to be, you have all what it takes

  • Linda Middlecamp:

    I think we are all entitled to have a pity party now and then, if just to remember we can if we want to. Then we can start fresh and move forward from there…or at least, that’s the idea! 😉

  • Thanks gone writing and Linda…..I’m planning on putting my head down and getting serious…that’s the only way to go!!!

    =)

    carrie

  • Okay. One important point to remember during your post-holiday writing sprint. For every 1,000 words, whether it’s drivel or Man Booker worthy, you’re entitled to browse the net for sales.

    I can provide a couple of sites that may interest you.

    Happy shopping! (I really mean writing.)

  • ooooo…great combo…writing AND shopping…color me there! =) (and yes, send the sites)

  • Linda:

    ummm, sales? shopping?

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